My story

During childhood and puberty I got to hear the phrase “you’re too hard to handle”, oh, too many times! 

Because of that, I thought I had to overwork myself to not let others down,

I learned to belittle myself to feel loved, and stayed in traumatising situations for far too long, mainly due to my belief, that things couldn’t get any better! 

More than enough people have to go through similar hardships and we all have different approaches to coping with this negative frequency, to name a few, some experience depression, some find the “balance” in various addictions and some get sick…. Yes, I tried all three.

After many years of constant body pain, I was diagnosed with small Fiber neuropathy in 2021. I was so exhausted, completely drained – nothing mattered to me anymore, I couldn’t eat, move or relax… and I dislike myself and my life so badly… I reached a point of desperation, so I decided to quit my two jobs, I quit my studies as a doctor’s assistant, and I isolated myself entirely. The only thing I could think of was “I am going to get help, living like that makes no sense anymore, in case nothing works, I will give up”.

So I reached out to doctors, I visited different clinic Centers, I tried out countless forms of medication – but most importantly, I took myself seriously for the very first time!!

It all happened after my grandmother Friederike had passed away, she probably realised I was not taking proper care of myself after all these years, so her spirit finally forced me to… And now I am so grateful for everything I had to go through!

This disease tremendously impacted my life, I understood I needed to go so much deeper, than medical sciences. I had to examine my lifestyle choices, my core beliefs and I started to focus more on creating prosperous conditions for me to grow in – that’s when the idea of lulúdimu was born, I thought my realisation was so profound, I had to share my experiences with others, that may be going through similar problems. 

A flower can’t survive and bloom every year, without earth, water, sun or love – what makes us think we are different?

I accepted my past, I had to feel all the trauma again to eventually release it, I started dreaming again, I taught myself to welcome my future with Joy and trust. I surrendered to the divine and then a shift occurred within my body, which reflected in everything I did, said or experienced!

I have to thank my teachers Persefoni Aishwarya and Elias Ananiadis the founder of conscious yoga academy for their support, they helped me experience wonder, when I needed it the most.

It’s part of my dharma (ancient Sanskrit word meaning your soul’s purpose)to give that energy of deep inner wisdom, love, acceptance and support back to my own students! 

You are ready to join our movement, 

#SpreadYourRootsToBlossom through movement and emotion, dear seedling!

I believe in you with all my heart! 

I send you my love,

Nina